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Been a While

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Just wanted to update everyone. Last time I was on here, I was suffering from depression pretty hard. I didn't know what to do with my life. I had no direction and I felt lost and alone. I know everyone was worried about me. I just wanted  to let you all know, life has changed. Majorly. I'm not chasing boys for approval anymore. I'm not wishing for good things anymore. I fixed it. I finally got fed up with my life and quit my 70 hour a week job. Left my abusive boyfriend of four years. I cut off ties with many people, only keeping a select few that I know love me. I joined the Army. Became a Cryptological Linguist. I'm learning my third language and getting stronger everyday. I fell in love. Real love. We're getting married soon. He's stationed on the other coast but he calls me every day to tell me how proud he is of me and how much he loves me. I'm healthy for the first time in many years. Just thought you guys should know. Thank you all for the strength you gave me and the support I needed back then...I would have given up if it hadn't have been for you guys. I would have never seen what I was capable of. Thank you. 
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Ok part two

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So I was home alone again today. Just for a short time. I was upstairs and I could hear someone moving downstairs. As some of you may know my roomies have a great dane. When it walks it sounds like a large human (which my roommates are) I naturally assumed it was just her moving about. Then I heard someone moving dishes in the kitchen. It's the only room I can hear from my room because it's right below me. Thought that was kinda weird since both roomies are at work but again, I assumed the logical. Maybe Taryn came home for her lunch break to let the dog out not knowing I'd be home. She doesn't work far from here. Anyways, I went downstairs about a minute later to grab something to drink. All the doors were closed and locked. No one was home. Just me and Lil, who sat on the couch. Then I remembered that it was four in the afternoon and Taryn's lunch shift starts at one... About an hour later, both of my roommates returned from work.
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Umm...ok...

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So, I'm home alone unloading the dishwasher, about to go to the gym, when something a little unnerving happened. All of the electronics in the house go out. Not that big of a deal. It's poor weather, it happens all the time.Then everything came back on again. Ok, that's normal. No big deal, however the radio is now buzzing from no longer being on a station. The radio had gone out the same time and then started buzzing the same time the lights came on. Well, I went to change the station back when I couldn't help but notice that A) the radio has to be manually tuned and B) it's battery powered...
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I'm struggling

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   So, I've been having a really hard time down here lately. Between work and school I have no time for the boy. He's been supportive but I can tell he's a bit ticked. I've been overloaded and unable to get everything finish. We've been fighting left and right. I lost my favorite earrings and had to go to the hospital for problems involving my uterus. I got in a car accident and the insurance company has been up my ass about it. I'm broke to no end even though I'm working more than I should. Finally this week everything was done. I felt so happy and relieved to be able to take a trip to see my father. It went so well. I was finally happy. I came home and opened my computer. Only to find a fucking facebook message telling me to get out. I got kicked out of the place I thought was home. Through facebook. The people I thought loved me, the people that I came down here for, the people that helped me make the decision to go to Ferrum in the first place no longer want me. Now that I'm going back to school tomorrow, I have to look for a new place nearby. The whole reason I went to Ferrum was because I thought I had security here. Something I've never had so I guess I couldn't identify it accurately anyway. I am at my wit's end. I don't know how to do this. Things just don't get better for me and when they do it's like something awful has to come in and fix that. I keep telling myself that if I work hard things will get better but they don't. And they should. Things should be better. There are all these things that are just out of my control and I just can't do it.
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Just thought this was interesting. Boys, I will put a warning before this shit gets weird don't worry. Lilith has just started to shed. Generally, a snake her age will shed about once a month if fed appropriately. Before shedding, a snake will go through a period of irritability and aggression. This lasts about 5-7 days. Then the snake will take about a week to shed. During the shedding process, a snake can be irritable due to discomfort. Many side effects can occur including loss of appetite, gain of appetite, fatigue, and physical discomfort. HERE IS YOUR WARNING! Being a woman, I couldn't help but notice how similar this experience is to menstruation. She PMSs a few days before she spends a week with a poor diet plan, bloating and fatigue. I thought about this as I examined the contents of my cart today which included, a stick (to help her scrape her skin off) a couple chocolate bars, K-cups, cranberry juice, and, you guessed it, tampons. The realization hit me today that the shed cycle of my first snake is on spot with my own menstrual cycle. This shit just gets weirder and weirder. One day she'll only shed ever two months or so, so this won't last forever but I thought it was notable and I need a few people to know this.
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